ajwa

you know, i’m really trying my best to speak my thoughts. to let out what’s on my mind freely and not care about what there is to come from it. because if it’s on my mind, it’s on my mind right.

i just don’t know what to do once i get into my emotions. and sometimes it feels like i’m overpouring. so i hold myself back. i tell myself nobody cares and tell myself to give up on expressing myself. that’s what hurts me in the end. when i hold back and keep to myself. nobody likes that. it’s not healthy. but it’s how i deal with things. i don’t know. i know it’s wrong but i’m working on it.