ajwa

if i had continued to think about my situation and how it was going to play out for the longest, i would have just kept stressing myself over it forever. i didn’t put any mind to trying to get on with anything and just accepted whatever it is, as it was. i wasn’t going to change my mind on things and i was always going to be optimistic and look forward to everything that was going to come.

i was already in a bad place, i didn’t want to make it any harder on myself. so i kept going. i let my feelings take a hold of me, and control my situation but i didn’t let it alter reality for me. i kept going.

i really wanted to give up, but what was that going to do for me? nothing.

now i’m here looking back and reflecting on everything i would have missed. everything i’ve accomplished and everything i ever got by and i’m proud of myself. who would have known that it would all play out like this in the end. nobody.