ajwa

when i catch myself thinking about you, i wonder if you still think about me too. i pray for your peace and healing and wish that you never come back to me again. for my peace and yours. we were never meant to be. but i start to wonder sometimes, where did it all go wrong? if i could change one thing in life that happened between us, what would it be? and how would it be now?

i start to tell myself that maybe things would have been better. that maybe if i had just put a little bit more effort, things would be different today. that you would have somehow stayed and none of this would have happened. i would be with you and we would be happy together. but that’s not the case. you moved on and you left me here to wonder how you’ve been.

i don’t know why my heart’s always like this for the people who don’t seem to care about me. i always put others first and forget about myself. i guess that’s why i always end up being hurt in the end. but i never planned on being hurt. i just want to make sure you’re okay. that’s all.