ajwa

i thought that at this point in my life i would be settled. i would have a career set and my life would work out from here. little did i know that i would actually be in the hole i am in today, wondering where my next steps in life are headed. i didn’t think i would be in bed every morning stuck on an idea that goes to waste every day. i wake up with plans then destroy them when they don’t happen. i never progress in my steps and continuously draw back every time. my parents, i like to think, are proud of how far i have come. but i don’t see the spark in their eyes anymore. they want me to be happy, but there are times where i feel like a disappointment to them. i feel that my success is only for them. and my mind gives up on trying to make any progress at all. i wish i could change that idea, but it’s only a matter of how far i come in life, and where progress takes me, will i then see the potential in the progress i am making, even if it’s slow.