ajwa

  • enjoy the silence before the noise

    it’s been really quiet lately, really still and silent. i’m not sure if that’s normal or if that’s even okay but it feels nice it feels calm it feels safe. should i be worried? i ask myself.  should i be trying to do something? no. maybe it’s better this way.  i’ve chosen to allow myself into this space and embrace the peace inside. it’s time i enjoy the silence for… ↓

  • choose your care

    there you go again, putting yourself in danger.  making everyone else feel important but yourself. choosing to care for others and giving them all they need when all the attention should be on you.  it’s not that you don’t want to care about you it’s that you choose to not care. while you’re doing all of this for them, who’s doing anything for you? ↓

  • 3:48am

    you ever just think about what would happen if you decided to just give up on something you’ve been committed to for far too long to give up now? how would that feel?  exhausting? freeing?  what’s the feeling you get when you think about letting something you’ve had for so long, go?  because i’m not sure myself. but i know for a fact i would miss it, whatever it is.… ↓

  • 2:17am

    you need to start caring for yourself more than you care about others. it’s not healthy. it’s draining and it’s exhausting trying to fix people when you could be fixing yourself you don’t spend the same amount of energy on yourself the way you spend it on others.  so why now? why do you feel like you should give your all for someone who would never do the same for… ↓

  • 10:13am

    not sure what it is but i’ve been waiting for approval from myself in everything that i’m doing. i need that constant reassurance that what i’m doing is good for me or not. and that whether what i’m doing is worth it or just wasting my time.  it’s almost like i can’t do anything without considering it’s effects and consequences.  rather than just living life and taking chances, i’ve been… ↓

  • can’t help it

    i can’t stop myself from thinking about life without you. i’m not sure what it is but i often find myself holding on to people and never wanting them to go. i’ve lost way too many people in the past, that i wouldn’t want it to happen again. it has nothing to do with attachment issues, or being clingy or anything of that sort. it simply has to do with… ↓