chapter one

  • letters to my younger self: you are more than what broke you

    dear younger me, i see you. sitting in the corner of your roomyour small hands clenched into fists. your head buried into your kneesholding onto words that were too heavy to carry, but too dangerous to let go. there’s a storm behind your lips, begging to be set free,but nobody stops long enough to hear the storm fighting inside you. you learned early that silence was safer, being quiet was… ↓

  • who would have known

    if i had continued to think about my situation and how it was going to play out for the longest, i would have just kept stressing myself over it forever. i didn’t put any mind to trying to get on with anything and just accepted whatever it is, as it was. i wasn’t going to change my mind on things and i was always going to be optimistic and look… ↓

  • change your focus

    if Allah wanted it to happen, it would have happened a long time ago. stop sitting around trying to understand why this didn’t work out and why this is not happening etc. and building negative trains of thoughts into your head. you’re only harming yourself that way. instead, be patient, accept what’s happening and move on with whatever it is. don’t let yourself feel like you need to do a… ↓

  • 3:48am

    you ever just think about what would happen if you decided to just give up on something you’ve been committed to for far too long to give up now? how would that feel?  exhausting? freeing?  what’s the feeling you get when you think about letting something you’ve had for so long, go?  because i’m not sure myself. but i know for a fact i would miss it, whatever it is.… ↓

  • 8:35am

    it’s my fault that i wanted to fix you.  i wanted to help you and make you feel better. i wanted to take the pain away from you while i was hurting the most.  but i didn’t think that in fixing you i would break myself.  and the problem is that it doesn’t bother me. it doesn’t hurt to know that i need fixing too. just as long as you… ↓

  • 3:22am

    you can’t keep holding on to what wasn’t meant for you. some things in life happen for a reason. as a lesson for you to learn from and move on. you can’t help but keep thinking about letting these things stay in your life. but a lot of times, these things come so that you can let go. of whatever it is. just let go. let it be a reminder… ↓