ajwa

chapter one

  • letters to my younger self: you are more than what broke you

    dear younger me, i see you. sitting in the corner of your roomyour small hands clenched into fists. your head buried into your kneesholding onto words that were too heavy to carry, but too dangerous to let go. there’s a storm behind your lips, begging to be set free,but nobody stops long enough to hear ↓

  • who would have known

    if i had continued to think about my situation and how it was going to play out for the longest, i would have just kept stressing myself over it forever. i didn’t put any mind to trying to get on with anything and just accepted whatever it is, as it was. i wasn’t going to ↓

  • change your focus

    if Allah wanted it to happen, it would have happened a long time ago. stop sitting around trying to understand why this didn’t work out and why this is not happening etc. and building negative trains of thoughts into your head. you’re only harming yourself that way. instead, be patient, accept what’s happening and move ↓

  • 3:48am

    you ever just think about what would happen if you decided to just give up on something you’ve been committed to for far too long to give up now? how would that feel?  exhausting? freeing?  what’s the feeling you get when you think about letting something you’ve had for so long, go?  because i’m not ↓

  • 8:35am

    it’s my fault that i wanted to fix you.  i wanted to help you and make you feel better. i wanted to take the pain away from you while i was hurting the most.  but i didn’t think that in fixing you i would break myself.  and the problem is that it doesn’t bother me. ↓

  • 3:22am

    you can’t keep holding on to what wasn’t meant for you. some things in life happen for a reason. as a lesson for you to learn from and move on. you can’t help but keep thinking about letting these things stay in your life. but a lot of times, these things come so that you ↓

  • 5:40am

    who would have thought you’d turn out this way? i wasn’t expecting you to be like this but you are. and that’s my fault for being optimistic and hoping for the best from you. you let me in and treated me the way any friend would want to be treated. you asked me about my day ↓

  • a lot of things

    a lot of things have been going on lately. a lot of things we can’t put our full attention to, even if we wanted to. a lot of these things are unpreventable. a lot of them are hard to avoid. a lot of them are simply just better off left alone. ↓

  • temporary feeling

    the more i see a certain person, place or thing, the more i want to avoid them. ↓

  • 10:13pm

    do you find yourself thinking a lot? cause i do that’s what brings us down. i figured out a solution for myself, and it’s time you do the same for yourself. ↓

  • new year 2021

    with the new year already here, i thought i would share my input on the previous year and talk about lessons that we should all keep in mind for this year. let’s get to it. ↓

  • 6:33am

    we need to search for that source in our lives that doesn’t necessarily make us happy but enough to leave us content. satisfied. ↓

  • 9:24pm

    there are many situations in our life that we can’t control and as much as we want to change them, we are unable to. we need to accept some things in life and move on. understand that this life is temporary and can end at any given moment so learn to make the best out ↓

  • 5:22am

    “if someone truly cared for you, they’d never forget about you, ever. no matter how long it’s been since the last time you talked, they will always remember you.” ↓

  • 4:54pm

    i wonder where you are in the times i needed you, where did you go? – why was i always there for you, but you were never there for me? what did i do wrong? tell me. – did i need you more than you needed me? did you find someone else to take my ↓