ajwa

chapter two

  • between sabr and dua

    i don’t want this ramadan to slip through my fingers like the last one before it.i don’t want it to end with the weight of regret sitting heavy on my chest. counting the missed opportunities, the prayers i rushed through, the nights i let pass without asking for forgiveness and seeking guidance from Allah. i ↓

  • the weight we carry

    i’ve lost count of how many times i’ve held onto something too tightly, an idea, a plan, a hope – convinced it was meant to be mine. i told myself that if i just tried hard enough, it would come. and yet there were moments, when things didn’t work out. there’s a tough feeling to ↓

  • no fear, just hope

    there’s a weight that comes with starting again. something heavy that comes with trying again and again. from the moments i let fear decide for me. i’ve been let down before, by people, by dreams, by myself. i held too tight, by the version of myself that was too afraid to take a chance. but ↓

  • where hope still lies

    in a world split by borders and beliefs, there remains one truth, our shared humanity. yet, as our countries suffer, the connection feels distantly lost. i find myself seeking the truth in a lot of what is happening in the world, searching for some understanding of even a hint of the sorrow that our people ↓

  • comfort in silence

    you know, there’s times in life when words just don’t seem like enough.like when i see you hurting, the sound in your voice, the pain in your heart,and all i can do is stand by, wishing i could do more. how can i watch you grieve and not know what to do?it breaks my heart ↓

  • can’t wait much longer

    i’m not as strong as i make myself out to be. i need help too. i need my family and friends. i need their love and support. but they’re not always there for me. i’ve grown so used to them being gone that i’ve learned to rely on myself instead. but it’s becoming too lonely, ↓

  • comfort in being alone

    you ever got so comfortable in your space that you want to stay away from the rest of the world? you take advantage of the moments that you have to yourself and you enjoy it. you don’t look to others for approval and you don’t mind what others have to say because ultimately you’re living ↓

  • stop beating yourself up

    you’re doing it again. doubting yourself and you barely know it. you keep telling yourself you’re not gonna make it. and you don’t even know how far you HAVE made it. look where you are and where you were before. you don’t think you had to endure a lot to get to where you are ↓

  • accept and move on

    it all comes down to how you feel about the situation. the more you press on about it, the more you expect to find a solution. the more you release the matter and let it do its part on its own, the more you free yourself of it. you don’t realize it until you really ↓

  • you start to wonder

    when i catch myself thinking about you, i wonder if you still think about me too. i pray for your peace and healing and wish that you never come back to me again. for my peace and yours. we were never meant to be. but i start to wonder sometimes, where did it all go ↓

  • trying to disconnect

    stop trying to disconnect from the world. you know your worth, your energy, your everything. why bother trying to let someone affect your goals and dreams to aspire and do better when you came this far? don’t let em consume you and ruin your thoughts and try to push you down to nothing. you’re everything. ↓

  • place my worries

    i go to sleep and place all my worries into your hands. ya Allah you know me best and you know what’s best for me. make my intentions great and help me better myself and my connection with you first before i ask for anything else. i want to rely on you for everything but ↓

  • working on it

    you know, i’m really trying my best to speak my thoughts. to let out what’s on my mind freely and not care about what there is to come from it. because if it’s on my mind, it’s on my mind right. i just don’t know what to do once i get into my emotions. and ↓

  • reflections

    i’m just thinking about how fast this month has come to an end. i’m getting excited to enjoy my summer now that school is over, but i’m not necessarily sure i’m ready for the month to be done with. tonight was the last night for taraweeh prayer. putting in my all was everything i had ↓

  • ramadan coming to an end

    i’m not very happy with the way ramadan is ending. i was really looking forward to doing more but unfortunately school got in the way. not to say i’m not proud of my efforts. i was able to manage school and reading quran at the same time, but i wish i would have done more. ↓