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writers block i haven’t felt this way in a while. empty. like i have nothing to put forward. although deep down i know i have a lot i want to say. but i can’t bring myself to do so. i don’t know how i’m going to do it. or what i’m going to do to ↓

look how far you’ve come. it’s taken so much effort to get here and i can’t say how proud of you i am, but i can say that you did amazing. and you’re here now because you worked for it. every moment. all the times you wanted to give up, you told yourself otherwise. you ↓

you ever think about how your mind controls your everyday choices? how your mind works to make decisions for you?  it takes your thoughts and feelings into consideration and does things out of your control to make you think a certain way about something.  you would think it’s doing you good but sometimes your mind ↓

there you go again, putting yourself in danger.  making everyone else feel important but yourself. choosing to care for others and giving them all they need when all the attention should be on you.  it’s not that you don’t want to care about you it’s that you choose to not care. while you’re doing all ↓

you need to start caring for yourself more than you care about others. it’s not healthy. it’s draining and it’s exhausting trying to fix people when you could be fixing yourself you don’t spend the same amount of energy on yourself the way you spend it on others.  so why now? why do you feel ↓

not sure what it is but i’ve been waiting for approval from myself in everything that i’m doing. i need that constant reassurance that what i’m doing is good for me or not. and that whether what i’m doing is worth it or just wasting my time.  it’s almost like i can’t do anything without ↓

i can’t stop myself from thinking about life without you. i’m not sure what it is but i often find myself holding on to people and never wanting them to go. i’ve lost way too many people in the past, that i wouldn’t want it to happen again. it has nothing to do with attachment ↓

it shouldn’t take experience to realize your worth but unfortunately that’s what happens. it takes time to find out what you mean to someone and it takes effort to see your value in someone. someone who cares about you wouldn’t make you question how much you mean to them. someone who appreciates you wouldn’t make ↓

happy four year anniversary  would you believe that four years ago, i decided to start my own blog? i had no confidence in myself that i would hold on to this page for this long yet i did. although i haven’t posted any of my writings in a while, that doesn’t mean i haven’t been ↓

when i find myself giving up on writing down my thoughts, i like to remind myself that if i don’t do this now, i wouldn’t have anything to look back at in the future. so i focus that thought and convince myself to do more journaling, thought tracking and self writing so that i can ↓

care for the ones who are always there for you.  they may not show it but they could be going through hell and you would never know. they would never tell you and they would never show it but you have to feel it from within. their attitudes shift a bit and you can sense ↓

you ever feel like saying something to someone but don’t because you know in your heart that there’s no reason for you to? because they’re just going to keep doing what you tell them not to do. and it’s kinda useless to waste your time. so you just let them do what they want knowing ↓

we all do bad things, directly or indirectly. whether we know it or not. we’re not perfect individuals. we all have our flaws. ↓